My name is Steve, I'm an alcoholic.

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bluering

Trad climber

Santa Clara, CA

Topic Author's Reply - Dec 31, 2015 - 07:41am PT

"Here me callin'....DR. ROCK!!!"

I know, Sprock, sucks about Lemmy. Take care, brah!
I got 3 weeks today. Next week? My first chip! 30days.

Be sure to let me know if you're in my perimeter down here, you can crash at my place.

Cheers!

dirtbag

climber

Dec 31, 2015 - 08:15am PT

Three weeks! Wonderful news, Steve.

Gary

Social climber

Where in the hell is Major Kong?

Jan 20, 2016 - 07:12am PT

Hey, bluering. How's it going, man?

bluering

Trad climber

Santa Clara, CA

Topic Author's Reply - Jan 20, 2016 - 08:11am PT

I'm doing great, thanks!

I'm at about 40 days in right now. I received my 30-day chip from my weekly AA meeting. I miss some of the meetings, just go when I feel like it. I think what helps me in particular is being a family man.

I have a great wife and wonderful son that help keep things real and in perspective. It would be much more difficult if I did not have this 'anchor' to keep me moored in realsville.

I'm a blessed man.

Gary

Social climber

Where in the hell is Major Kong?

Jan 20, 2016 - 08:13am PT

That's good news, bluey. What you're doing for your son is immeasurably good.

Happiegrrrl2

Trad climber

Jan 20, 2016 - 09:05am PT

Thanks for the update - glad it has been an easy path for you, Bluering. I got it that way too. We are two of the lucky ones.

Relapse dreams - I have had a few and they are usually that I have been drinking all the whole time and somehow didn't "realize" it. Freaky stuff. But I am always glad when I wake up and think - really hard - DID I drink?" and finally realize that no, I didn't. It was just a nightmare. I like the dreams where I am flying, or able to hover walk. I SO wish we could do that in real life.

bluering

Trad climber

Santa Clara, CA

Topic Author's Reply - Jan 20, 2016 - 09:15am PT

Cheers, Happie! I'm glad things are well with you too.

Scrubber

climber

Straight outta Squampton

Jan 20, 2016 - 09:52am PT

Proud of you Steve.
Keep it up, and don't let your guard down. The reward of your family will be immeasurable.

Kris

Lynne Leichtfuss

Trad climber

Will know soon

Jan 20, 2016 - 10:26am PT

Relapse dreams are Weird. I smoked cigs heavily when I was in my twenties. Even now I wake up once in a while thinking.....oh no, after 40 years of no cigarettes I blew it. Crazy!

Norton

Social climber

Jan 20, 2016 - 10:33am PT

I'm at about 40 days in right now

Steve, my sincere congratulations sir !

nature

climber

Boulder, CO

Jan 20, 2016 - 10:43am PT

Good Job Blue!

bluering

Trad climber

Santa Clara, CA

Topic Author's Reply - Jan 20, 2016 - 11:02am PT

Thanks all. And thanks, Gary, for thinking of me. Means a lot. Thanks.

Moose, it's up to you, but I have found that I feel much better having quit. I wasn't really getting much of a 'reward' anymore from drinking, in fact, it was quite the opposite for me. Drinking became a burden, a potentially dangerous one for me.

I really had nothing to lose by quitting, and quite a bit to gain as I have found out later. My extended family (Mom/Dad, brother, and many friends) had written me off as a lifer. Needless to say, they are blown away that I have quit for this long so far. They're stunned.

I could be a poster-boy for, "if he could do it...you can too".

neebee

Social climber

calif/texas

Jan 20, 2016 - 11:31am PT

hey there say, steve!!! wow, i been thinking about you... so very happy to hear this!!!

happy good cheers to the wife and son, too!

keep up the great work, and keep that success going in this good
stable way... :)

Gary

Social climber

Where in the hell is Major Kong?

Jan 20, 2016 - 01:32pm PT

blue, my Dad was an alcoholic for most of his life. We both missed out on a lot. It's hard, but it's worth it.

nature

climber

Boulder, CO

Jan 20, 2016 - 02:07pm PT

I have a friend that I had to say something to in this regard. I've not heard from him since.

ruppell

climber

Jan 20, 2016 - 04:27pm PT

I could be a poster-boy for, "if he could do it...you can too".

There's a lot of us here that could probably fit on that poster. My nickname used to be "drunk Matt". Now it's "as#@&%e Matt". I like the second one much better then the first. Congrats on sticking with it.

GDavis

Social climber

SOL CAL

Jan 20, 2016 - 07:03pm PT

Just had a long phone conversation with Mom.

Alcoholism runs through my family - or better yet, IS RUNNING through my family. A few years ago all the kids grew up, now all the kids have grown up problems and are medicating...

Had a realization that I had been drinking about 28 out of 31 days a month back in October. Took a few days off, back to 28 again. Took a day or two off, back at it again.

I woke up late again for a climbing trip. Slept in, hung over, felt like sh#t. The big day turned into a lazy afternoon at the gym, again.

There's a lot of those "I need to get better about this shit" things I get hit with every so often, usually in winter. I need to stretch, I need to be friendlier, I need to eat healthier. This drinking one is a new one, and with a few family members fully addicted with no end in sight with a laundry list of issues stemming from their disease, I can't be obtuse or playful with how dangerous this sh#t is.

I have a half a bottle of Crown Royal in the cupboard. I want it to be there when I move out. I never drank so much as to say I have a problem that I can't control on my own, one to three beers per night, but it would be great if I stopped drinking by myself. So, that's the new rule.

We might have to make more rules later. I have my demons, we all do. It's best to shine flashlights on them and scare them out of the corners so we can experience life to the fullest rather than let them wallow in the dank recesses of our mind, poisoning every experience with their overbearing presence.

bluering

Trad climber

Santa Clara, CA

Topic Author's Reply - Jan 21, 2016 - 08:01am PT

Greg, it is good to be aware if addiction/alcoholism runs in your family. My mother's identical twin sister was afflicted, died prematurely as a result.

You don't strike me as the type, and it doesn't sound like you drink excessively. Just keep an eye on it and never let it dictate the terms to you.

Not drinking will not harm you though. It's that whole moderation thing really. Most people can do that, but people like myself cannot.

Cheers, brah!