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Norwegian
Trad climber
dancin on the tip of god's middle finger
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Topic Author's Original Post - Apr 15, 2014 - 10:26am PT
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a fresh slab on the meat market, right here.
i've got tons of enviable skills and assets
plus a six-pack at forty.
my charm is immense, my wit has it's moments.
i'll spin your understanding
when you least expect it.
i work like a mule,
i'm pretty quiet and reserved,
until some inner spark ignites,
then i shine, and usually
those around me just step back a little
and observe.
i expect of my partner and of my peers
a diligence and a commitment to the tough battle.
i practice what i preach:
at each choice in life that presents
itself at a crossroads....
whoa that's too many prepositions entangled
in one thought they bind the stride of
my expression and it falls flat on it's expressionless face...
let me try again:
i practice what i preach:
when a moment presents me with two choices,
i make a habit out of choosing the struggle.
for example:
my sleepy eyes open on a blue bird spring morning.
i see the dawn, beyond my bed.
my warm and soft bed.
shall i reset my conscious, and go hither to sleep?
or shall i arise and put on soiled socks and
walk down the lane, into the day?
choice B.
man i've employed this emotional tactic
my entire life (my father instilled this into me)
and i've arrived at wonderful destinations because of this habit.
because all of the death in this world;
it's just shy of the life.
and all of the life in this world;
It's just shy of the sorrow.
thus, sorrow is absolute. and king.
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Brandon-
climber
The Granite State.
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Apr 15, 2014 - 10:53am PT
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Seriously? What the hell happened?
I thought you were on the wagon and sh#t.
Sorry to hear of this man.
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Brandon-
climber
The Granite State.
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Apr 15, 2014 - 11:06am PT
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F*#k, dude. What's going to happen with the girls?
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thebravecowboy
climber
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Apr 15, 2014 - 11:14am PT
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"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world, I feel like I can't take it, and my heart is just going to cave in."
[Click to View YouTube Video]
I feel it too, man, I really do. Please don't let it cave you in though. We need you.
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kaholatingtong
Trad climber
Nevada City
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Apr 15, 2014 - 11:15am PT
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sometimes, what seems initially to be a bad thing can end up being a very good thing in the long run. best wishes on your journey.
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Norwegian
Trad climber
dancin on the tip of god's middle finger
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Topic Author's Reply - Apr 15, 2014 - 11:26am PT
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brandon i'm still on the wagon,
i almost derailed when the
aweful words were uttered
there on highway one in half-moon bay,
on the edge of that beautiful blue pacific.
but i stood a wobbly poise
and grabbed a tall water, instead of a six-pack.
the station clerk saw agony
in my eyes, which grew from
a yearning in my heart
and a restlessness in my feet.
anita we should both
go plant something new and green today,
in the soil that doesn't know yesterday
or tomorrow.
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Flip Flop
Trad climber
Truckee, CA
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Apr 15, 2014 - 11:27am PT
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Weeg,
I walked into county jail on Wednesday. I gave up freedom to rage against the machine. Now I can rage again freely.
The darkness helps us see the big picture.
You know my struggle. My son is not an option. Giving up is not an option.
In Darkness we can see the lights. On the morningside we can be the light.
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The Larry
climber
Moab, UT
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Apr 15, 2014 - 11:43am PT
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Hang in there Chuck. Come out to Utah and get some chossy desert dessert.
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this just in
climber
north fork
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Apr 15, 2014 - 11:49am PT
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Good luck weege, hoping the best for you.
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The Larry
climber
Moab, UT
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Apr 15, 2014 - 11:54am PT
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It's whatever you want it to be Jebus. In your case I'd say mangina.
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Reilly
Mountain climber
The Other Monrovia- CA
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Apr 15, 2014 - 12:00pm PT
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It takes two to tango although I'm willing to bet she thinks you are the problem.
Best of luck, especially for the little ones who are the real victims.
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mike m
Trad climber
black hills
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Apr 15, 2014 - 12:02pm PT
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Good luck weeg. I hope you find a good way to be with your family.
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Norwegian
Trad climber
dancin on the tip of god's middle finger
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Topic Author's Reply - Apr 15, 2014 - 12:26pm PT
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oh i appreciate the support and well wishes
and offerings of loose climbing escapades.
it's great. the hurt is minimal
as we've exhausted our efforts to
find ground on which to stay married.
thus the separation makes good sense.
both parties will benefit.
even the kids will enjoy a new
serenity that has been absent for many years.
our differences are insurmountable.
it is as simple as that.
we we seek, and what we expect from
life is not compatible.
thus we are both constantly left starving.
we plan to liquidate all assets and split
the equity that is left after the debts are paid.
we also plan to split the custody.
she knows im a good dad, and that our girls need me.
and i cherish her mothering skills and qualities.
as we both earn roughly equal salaries,
no child support is necessary.
hopefully a clean break and new horizons for both of us.
we are not even employing a lawyer in the process.
maybe i'm completely naive,
or, yea, i am completely naive,
but i can.
and i always do.
look out world,
i'm ripping off my exo-life and
crawling out anew from beneath that battered cloak of yesterday.
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Leggs
Sport climber
Made in California
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Apr 15, 2014 - 12:31pm PT
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look out world,
i'm ripping off my exo-life and
crawling out anew from beneath that battered cloak of yesterday.
My best to you and your family, Weeg.
~peace, always... Lisa Mae
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Charlie D.
Trad climber
Western Slope, Tahoe Sierra
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Apr 15, 2014 - 12:33pm PT
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Wow Chuck, just left you a voice message....let's connect sooner than later.
Charlie D.
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Norwegian
Trad climber
dancin on the tip of god's middle finger
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Topic Author's Reply - Apr 15, 2014 - 12:43pm PT
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charlie can i park my camper in your driveway
and raise my kids within earshot of your pillow?
wink, wink.
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BLUEBLOCR
Social climber
joshua tree
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Apr 15, 2014 - 02:15pm PT
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WOOW Weeg
These are the worst words you couldhave whispered.
More than a sudden unexpected death where there is chance for rebirth.
Urs will be a daily buryal of that gleam in ur eye that came from bowing to your queen.
On ur own your choices will be infinite.
The crown ur assembling only fits when ur on your own.
Is the glory you seek sound like one hand clapping.
Or do your strides deserve a standing ovation.
Adjust ur focus from the end of your pointing finger.
Listen to the starring gaze that was once ur seed.
Blind that I that condemns their need.
Whilest distance is the platform for grief and surely a way of obtaining the spot light.
There is no going back to the love u'll soon lack.
No one here in this pack gives a rats ass about the size of ur rack.
It's only those 3 girls that will ever have ur back.
My rant has turned from rythum to ryhm and its not caused from rum.
It's cause I've been where ur going and I think it's dumb.
Stand tall my boy by living on ur knees.
For one day you WILL need a hand to step down.
Foresure never have I seen in ur vocabulary the word please
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couchmaster
climber
pdx
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Apr 15, 2014 - 02:22pm PT
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Great attitude Weege, best of luck to you as a single dad!
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NutAgain!
Trad climber
South Pasadena, CA
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Apr 15, 2014 - 02:30pm PT
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Good luck with it all. It's a good time to see clearly and peer into the depths, to better understand what moorings and anchorage you offer, what you require, and what you cannot accept, such that future entanglements properly float all affected boats.
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Studly
Trad climber
WA
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Apr 15, 2014 - 02:33pm PT
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Weege, I feel your pain and your sorrow. I walk in your shoes as well, its not a pretty place to be, but maybe its just darkest before the dawn.
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