Malignent Melanoma Survivors who climb

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TeleMele

climber

Hood RIver, OR

Mar 19, 2011 - 03:08am PT

A miracle is simply a shift in perception from thoughts of fear to thoughts of love.

Sending miracles your way Paul! Saw that quote on the "crazy sexy cancer" website and thought of you... (She's got a great website and book if you need food ideas or inspiration, feminine though it may be ;)
Lightness and strength and healing and climbing and giving talks and smiles with friends are all on my mind for you. You've still got this, rock star! Give me a call anytime if you want to shout about it! :)

All the best,
Melanie

neebee

Social climber

calif/texas

Mar 19, 2011 - 04:38am PT

hey there say, paul and ruth... just saying hey there to you this eve...

your are not forgotten... :)

hoping for a little bit of smiles to come your way, through the storm...
:)

Maysho

climber

Soda Springs, CA

Mar 19, 2011 - 09:38am PT

Hey Paul,

Been thinking of you, I was just up in your home area leading 14 high school students through the "adventures in restoration" course. Working in the Mattole, kayaking in the bay. We got shut down by rain the day we wanted to climb at Carruthers cove, but the hike up Fern Canyon was incredible and the kids loved it. Weren't you the one who put in the anchors at Carruthers? Awesome place for an easy slab.

Wishing a shift to less suffering for you, you are an inspiration...

Peter

Disaster Master

Social climber

Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.

Topic Author's Reply - Mar 19, 2011 - 11:42am PT

Weren't you the one who put in the anchors at Carruthers? Awesome place for an easy slab.

Yes, with Adam W. Hardly anyone goes there. I don't know why. The place is a double Moonstone Beach size area with a less than a mile walk from your car. The beach is deserted, there are ELK.
We would have routed the place out years ago, but we did not want rusting bolts there. So we have waited for better hardware...
The top-rope bolts seemed worth it. (How are they holding up?) That slab is bigger than Karen rock.

Jobee

Social climber

El Portal Ca.

Mar 19, 2011 - 01:35pm PT

Thinking of you Paul, please keep posting!

SCseagoat

Trad climber

Santa Cruz

Mar 19, 2011 - 02:16pm PT

Hey Paul, I hate hearing you are struggling. Do any of the patch medications help without making you fuzzy brained? Going to brew my tea now, sharing it with you always. Susan

Mighty Hiker

climber

Vancouver, B.C.

Mar 19, 2011 - 02:29pm PT

Perhaps Chris or Greg could change the title of this thread to "Magnificent Melanoma Survivors Who Climb". It seems appropriate.

Maysho

climber

Soda Springs, CA

Mar 19, 2011 - 03:25pm PT

Great shots Paul, TFPU!

I would like to use one to show the kids next year if that is okay with you? Last year the bolts seemed okay, didn't walk down there this trip as it was pouring. We had a great time last year, had a couple of students who were skilled enough to do the left hand route, everyone else had fun on the far right.

I hope to explore more of those areas you developed, Marble, Forks of the Salmon etc. and of course get back to Burnt Ranch and Lost Rocks, your legacy of North Coast new routing is very proud!

Peter

SCseagoat

Trad climber

Santa Cruz

Mar 19, 2011 - 03:26pm PT

"Magnificent Melanoma Survivors Who Climb"

Ain't that a fact!

yllw2lip

climber

Orange, CA

Mar 21, 2011 - 01:31am PT

Hey there big brother... thinking of you often and praying for you often. I put your name in the church prayer letter every week. I know lots of people are praying for you and for the tumors to completely go away and for a full on miracle. I have hope that things will get better for you. I hate that you are in pain and far enough away for me to not be able to just hop in a car and visit for a few hours. With the two kiddos and a husband that is gone for several weeks at a time you know how that is. But if you ever said the word... "Come NOW!" believe you me that I would find a way to get to you ASAP!!

I hope to see you in the near future, whether you come out this way to climb in J-tree or if we get a chance to make a trip to see you. I miss you and love you. Katie still talks of you and Ruth fondly and I know she would love to hang out with you again, even if its just watching climbs on you-tube... she loved doing that with you. haha.

Lots of love and prayers are being sent your way from me constantly, truly.
xxooxxoo,
Your lil' sis

Mungeclimber

Trad climber

sorry, just posting out loud.

Mar 21, 2011 - 01:54am PT

Carruther's looks cool.

"dissapointed about the slaps and kicks I have received over the last # of years"

understandable. more power to you in laughing at the absurdity.

ncrockclimber

climber

Mar 21, 2011 - 11:40am PT

I know we have never met, but you are in my thoughts.

SteveW

Trad climber

The state of confusion

Mar 24, 2011 - 02:25pm PT

Hey Paul
How're you doing? Haven't heard from you recently,
and you're in my thoughts.

JOEY.F

Gym climber

It's not rocket surgery

Mar 24, 2011 - 05:16pm PT

Yes, it's been a few days, how you doin' ?

okaythatsme

climber

Mar 25, 2011 - 01:44pm PT

Hi Paul,
Checking to see how this week has been and hoping it has been okay.

zeta

Trad climber

Berkeley

Mar 25, 2011 - 03:25pm PT

hey Paul,

i've never met you, but have been following this thread closely. How are you doing?

This was on the front page of the NYT and I thought of you...

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/03/26/business/26drug.html?hp

stay strong, be well, and look forward to news,

Jen

Disaster Master

Social climber

Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.

Topic Author's Reply - Mar 25, 2011 - 03:54pm PT

Paul here.

I am still alive. My system is not functioning properly, though. So most hours are spent dealing with nausea, constipation, and fatigue. Whoo-hoo!

As such, I have been reluctant to say "Hi. I can't sh#t. What did you climb today?" ;)

My life sounds like a whining Dead Milkmen punk album... Angry, funny, profane and pointless.
Things have been tense. I have had no fuse. I am either off or raging. It is too much for anyone to take long term. I realized last week that I did not want to live like this. But if I died I would be very dissapointed with myself for going out in such a destructive mood. This train of thought was confirmed ealy in the AM one morning when Ruth told me to "Check my head. Quick!"

Years ago I established a climb called "Put UP or Shut Up!" I made that my mantra for the next couple days. Mostly I shut up.

At first she was more confused, perhaps thinking I was giving her the silent treatment. But I tried to explain, and now a few days later my anger is just an occasional eruption, not a constant gale.

We talked about what I had to look forward to. It was her birthday and valentine's day last month. I spent all my saved gift $ on her. I had also found a pair of climbing shoes I need that fit my ravaged feet real good on sale, but passed to get her things. When she found out she said I should get the shoes. After all, dieing dudes don't by shoes. They're on the way. She sent back part of her B-day gift to help pay for them.

I had hoped to use these new shoes at J-Tree in a week or so at the big party.http://www.supertopo.com/climbers-forum/1412917/Spring-Josh-Party-and-Flanders-Fundraiser But I do not think I will be up to it yet. Even if I was, we are too poor and I have Doc and scans the Monday after. That would mean party and then drive back to SF to be poked and irradited the next day....?

If no J-Tree then the next motivator is an invitation to speak at the Santa Rosa climbing club in a month.http://rockicemountain.org/ I can talk. I just need more photos of Humboldt, friends, old stuff, for eye candy. Anyone have anything to send me?

More later,
ME

EDIT:
Fattrad,
We are well awear of Ippi. It was the treatment I was thinking about before trying the MEK inhibitor I am now on. If this fails. Ippi. may be my next / last course of action. One thing is the big groin tumor must go soon. So if I am kicked off my curent treatment, I must decide BETWEEN ippi. and surgury. This is because of the dread word PROTOCOL...

Thank you to everyone who has given $ to Paypal, art, letters of support, prayers, chants, and whatever else has been sent and received. I am sorry if personal thanks slipped through the cracks. You ARE appreciated and have blessed Ruth and I.

God, without Ruth I would be dead by now. And without the support of ALL the rest of you, we would both be even more worn out.

Peace and Love.

graniteclimber

Trad climber

The Illuminati -- S.P.E.C.T.R.E. Division

Mar 25, 2011 - 05:46pm PT

I must decide BETWEEN ippi. and surgury. This is because of the dread word PROTOCOL...

Anyway you can do both? Promise the ippi folk you won't get surgery, get an ippi supply and then run out and get the surgery done. F*#k their "PROTOCOL."