Discussion Topic |
|
This thread has been locked |
happiegrrrl
Trad climber
www.climbaddictdesigns.com
|
|
|
Dec 25, 2011 - 11:05pm PT
|
Lois - You are very welcome to use any of the stories about myself which I put out, and I don't care if you include my name(Terrie - there are probably a few other Terrie's in the world - hahaha).
That is the 12th Step, working through me, and without my input. It came to me at some point in sobriety, via meditations, that this being of help to others by proxy could be considered the "anonymous" in AA. A pretty cool way to view it. I can tell you this - from being in NYC AA, with it's many visitors the world over, and some fairly high-profile individuals in the rooms, there are many - many - people who have made great positive impact in this world who are recovering alcoholics.
People whose lives have been in the gutter, who have done things they were terribly ashamed of, people who others had written off as hopeless, useless, dangerous - who have gone on to be highly productive, respected individuals in society. They are able to do so because they are sober - yet most people have absolutely no inkling that Such and Such *great person* spends time sitting in a room listening to people counting days...
Back to the thread - the tough times aren't over, for those struggling through the holidays. The day after xmas can be very difficult for many. Maybe got into a scrape at the family get-together, again. Maybe didn't show up as they had said they would. Maybe did show up and the stress of the get-together has them bouncing off the walls, in need of relief(a drink, or a dozen of them).
We are here for those people, in this thread, in the rooms of AA, on the streets in some anonymous person they don't even know. Reach you hand out, and we will take hold.
|
|
tradmanclimbs
Ice climber
Pomfert VT
|
|
5th sober new year for me.............
|
|
Mark Hudon
Trad climber
Hood River, OR
|
|
One year and one day for me!
|
|
bluering
Trad climber
Santa Clara, CA
|
|
Good for you, Mark!
|
|
Crimpergirl
Sport climber
Boulder, Colorado!
|
|
Whether one day or 30 years, everyone of you are really awesome. This thread continues to give to all of us. Thanks
|
|
happiegrrrl
Trad climber
www.climbaddictdesigns.com
|
|
Me too! Last night was really not any temptation - since I was in the van drinking tea by 6pm...
It was only because some people came by and started a fire that I crawled out of my...shell... and made it to about 8pm!
I do have to admit that, for the first time in my life, I am glad the holiday season is passed. I am having real difficulty with something in my life, and it is impacting many other facets of my life by proxy. Still, my sobriety is the key to survival. If I slip, I am doomed.
Lat week, I did have someone try to get me to drink from a glass of some concoction that seemed home made. They were acting as if it was nectar from the Gods. I asked what it was, believing this person knew I was a sober, and they said "Just try it! It's great!" When I asked "Does it have booze it it?" They said "Oh come on - try it!"
I was figuring it must be that Mon Avie stuff people go on about. It looked like a dark juice of some kind. Finally, I said "You DO remember I am in recovery, right?" and they said "That's not my problem."
It turned out it was some sort of alcohol that had been somehow enhanced after purchase. The person claimed, after the fact, that they had forgotten I was sober. But..... it was a pretty bizarre experience. I don't believe they forgot, from the way they acted. And I was in a pretty precarious emotional place, which they knew. I found it extremely disrespectful, but I guess people who don't have a problem with alcohol aren't always fully cognizant of just how dangerous a substance it is for those of us who do.
Believe me - I am a much more attractive person without the drunk. I may not be the most easy-going or comfortable in social settings, but when I was drinking, I was a loud-mouthed, know-it-all, snob.
|
|
Largo
Sport climber
The Big Wide Open Face
|
|
No hangover on Jan. 1. Go figure . . .
A one day reprieve. Every day.
JL
|
|
Jaybro
Social climber
Wolf City, Wyoming
|
|
Cheers!
|
|
Gene
climber
|
|
happiegrrrl,
Very Happie New Year to you!
g
|
|
Rick A
climber
Boulder, Colorado
|
|
I admire the courage of all those posting here. Happy new year and continued success: one day at a time.
Rick
|
|
bvb
Social climber
flagstaff arizona
|
|
Pleased as punch (or herbal tea, or OJ and perrier, or whatever) that I didn't get loaded last night. Today is a good day.
|
|
cmcc
Trad climber
Hood River, OR
|
|
6 months... don't think about it as much anymore.
Just spent time with family and am sure thankful to not have those twisted conversations saying things I usually regret.
|
|
Dr.Sprock
Boulder climber
I'm James Brown, Bi-atch!
|
|
quiet, safe and warm at home new years eve, listening to the police scanner, people already on probation for dui being pulled over, sad,
2 fights in one evening at the local bar, bunch of drunken idiots, cops inside the bar hauling people away, i was drinkin 7 up and shootin 8 ball going "glad it ain't me!"
|
|
Norwegian
Trad climber
Placerville, California
|
|
|
Jan 27, 2012 - 05:23pm PT
|
new years eve i was thousands of miles away
from home,
unseeing. unthinking. unbelieveing.
always though, was i acting.
out my movie.
titled,
your life.
not mine.
cause i understand little,
though i gather that bliss is fleeting
and it is when you attempt to cage elation
that it becomes
a disease.
i allow sorrow it's rightful passage thru.
sometimes im high with a durable smile.
some booze encourages a lightness within.
some reality encourages torture within.
booze rips me apart then
sews me agether togain.
reality chokes me till im blue
then blows sweet resussitation into.
i believe in god.
he kills one of my children.
i defile god and shite down her neck
and i wear myself around my own neck.
everybody needs something
that can take away the pain.
even pain takes away the pain.
|
|
nature
climber
Aridzona for now Denver.... here I come...
|
|
|
Jan 27, 2012 - 05:31pm PT
|
I'm not going permanently sober but.... I started a full body cleanse and a liver cleanse at the same time 9 days ago. The liver cleanse is based in chinese medicine. let's just say that it's fairly clear that my liver was rather polluted (considering what happened over the hollidaze that's no surprise).
I'll leave the personal details out of this. hah!
Last night I was in a weakened state. not sure why. I pondered the one beer that is kicking around my fridge. never really tempted but...
six more days of the cleanse. I continue to do better in terms of beating myself up on beer.
I feel pretty dam good right now. getting all sorts of things done at night when a few beers might otherwise shut down productivity.
so it goes...
|
|
Elcapinyoazz
Social climber
Joshua Tree
|
|
|
Jan 27, 2012 - 06:07pm PT
|
Twenty-Two months yesterday.
Still crave a cold beer a lot of times, but willpower is pretty strong. Have had a couple handles of liquor rolling around my car floorboard for a few weeks now (holiday gifts that haven't found their recipients yet), but that doesn't even interest me.
Just matched my all time best bouldering grade last night, at 39. So that alone is pretty strong motivation to stay off it.
|
|
Seamstress
Trad climber
Yacolt, WA
|
|
|
Jan 27, 2012 - 11:00pm PT
|
Peace.
|
|
Vegasclimber
Trad climber
Las Vegas, NV.
|
|
|
Feb 15, 2012 - 01:14am PT
|
12 years today. Man, the time has flown by.
Very thankful to have been given a second chance at life. There have been some damned hard times in sobriety, and a lot of good ones too.
Today I have a good job, a wonderful fiancee, and a ton of outdoor gear that I use constantly. Climbing and being outside has been a big part of my recovery.
I am finally FEELING stable, the last three years have really opened my eyes about myself and life in general.
It works if you work it, all. One day at a time, and sometimes one minute at a time. But if you don't pick up that first drink, you will never get drunk again. Make it simple, and keep it simple.
|
|
happiegrrrl
Trad climber
www.climbaddictdesigns.com
|
|
|
Feb 19, 2012 - 07:42pm PT
|
I am struggling.
Please, sober friends, please post to this thread and give me something to keep me occupied.
Am I in danger of drinking? I do not think I am. My thinking is very clear that one drink will take me so far from where I am supposed to be going that I would probably never get back on track.
But that doesn't mean I will not drink. It only takes a second to slip, and there are many seconds in a day, an hour, a minute.
I want to get these feelings out of me - I do not want to feel them. I do not want to "get over" the pain I am in, and try again. Again. I am tired,so very tired, of dusting myself off and picking myself up, and trying again. I am so tired of being told "it will happen," "stop trying," "you should try..." "you should be grateful," "so many people would trade for your life..."
OH F*#K.
pain, pain, pain.....
There is a meeting in Yucca Valley at 6pm. I am heading over there now and will feed Teddy and walk him when I get there.
Please don't ask what it is - it is a broken heart that should have gone through the pain a long time ago and just could not bear to do it.
Please tell me about YOUR story. Pleas tell me how it was back when you were drinking. Please tell me about the glory and gore of early sobriety. tell me funny drunken stories that are only funny to us drunks. Do not, please, tell me about how you found love only because you are sober. I have been sober 16 years, and I still have not had my first sober kiss. To tell me "it will happen" is like slapping me n the face, and I can't right now, smile politely when I hear it.
|
|
|
SuperTopo on the Web
|
Let us know!